Oh yes this was me and I ended up getting 51/50’d and ended up going to a metal facility, this was about a month ago and looking at it now I’m grateful it happened bc like I needed the help. But you should really get a therapist or start confiding in someone you trust because it will catch up to u in one way or another. Pls get some mental help weather it be a therapist, a school counselor, or a close family member or friend :( someone who’s going to have your best interest at heart, there’s people out there that must care about you and it’s never too late to reach out, much love and light for u<3